I WONDER
I wonder where my life would be
had I made better choices and lived righteously,
Would I have been sentenced to death for a costly mistake
or become a product of my environment,
and property of the state.
I honestly believe things would have been a lot different
if I made the effort to change how I was living.
But the end is not near and I still have the courage
to show the world I've become a better person.
Will it accept me in spite of my faults
help me back up after such a hard fall
I'm really not sure so I can only wonder
the sea of life is deep please don't push me under.
I think of my freedom and cry tears of pain
never did I know trying to shine like sun
would bring so much rain.
As I always going to be an occupant of a small cage
or will I be freed before the end of my days.
Is the position I reside in now my punishment
for all this wrong I've done.
I constantly wonder about all these things
and so much more.
Paul Storey 2009